I have been quiet for 10 days now. It seems like I am finding things difficult to put down to words or is it just from the lack of time and determination? Nonetheless, I am back and I will try to fill you in on what I have been doing and how I have been feeling in the last 10 days.
Buying a car
Some people will already know I was in the process of buying a car to replace my ageing Civic. The Civic has been a really good car to me and it was honestly my first dream car in my late teens and early 20s. It had the performance I craved for, it was reasonably cheap to run and maintain and it was practical to the point I had moved to 3 different homes in it. The best car I have had and probably the best I will ever have in terms of all round capabilities along with running costs. My baby has endured 5 hard years and 102,000 miles with me and I am definitely sad to see it go. Sometimes I still feel as though I am on an extended test drive in my new car and any day now I will get back into my Civic….
But no… my new car is also a Honda, but this time it is the S2000. It’s never been a car that I have taken much noticed off as I was always after something practical, which almost inevitably meant a hatchback. However, times have changed and with my parents buying an additional car, the burden for me to own something practical lessened. Coupled with the fact the Civic had done over 102,000 miles in 5 years, I felt that the Civic was nearing a major ‘surgery’ which is why I felt I had to let it go.
The S2000 is different in every way other than the badge that sits on the bonnet and boot lid. The car seats two people only, has a small boot and it is a convertible. It has a somewhat subtle but noticeable appeal to it being a convertible. But it is not as loud or as brash as the Civic even though it is much more a sports car with its front engine rear wheel drive set up. The performance is fractionally better, but fuel consumption is poorer.
There’s a lot of good things to say about the S2000 but even more for the Civic, but they are different cars with different purposes and appeals to different demographics. A car like the S2000 that I would not have considered a few months back is now the only means of transport I have. But I am very happy with it.
However, I did not buy the car from new, I bought it 2nd hand from a respectable dealer. But I made simple rookie mistakes in missing certain check points and I got a rough deal. Not that I blame the dealer, because they sold me a very good car, but I blame myself for not making them provide me with the best service before committing my money. I am still very pleased with the car I have bought, but I do have to spend a little more money just to make it ‘perfect’ in my eyes. Nothing major, but just a minor gripe. It is a small price to pay for a car that I will own for at least 3 years.
Joined the gym
In amongst the decision of buying the S2000, I had a thorough look at myself and I realised that physically I needed to get healthier. Although I have quit smoking for 5 months now, I am not ‘reclaiming’ my health as I should be. I’m not overly fat, but I could do with losing some inches around the waist!
Joining the gym had crossed my mind earlier on in the year, but I was doing kick boxing at the time. It was good to do something physical but I did not see why I was doing kick boxing after a while. The fitness only reached a certain level and I was only going once a week. Whilst I was there, all I was doing was trying to ‘score’ points off my opponent but striking and kicking them. Violence as a sport without the pain seems a bit pointless to me and I have decided to train to prepare my body for a season of playing rugby…
That may not happen, but I have thought out the options and the best thing to do is to join the gym and build up some strength and fitness. Regardless of what I do at the end, at least I will have a healthier and fitter body.
Another reason for joining the gym now is to make use of my NUS card which expires in September (the MBA course was just over one calendar year, therefore I was registered as a student for 2 years). This meant I ended up paying £26 per month as opposed to £40 per month and I have the same benefits! BONUS! J
Considering shaving my head
Alongside the decision to buy the S2000, I also toyed with the idea of shaving my head. Being in a convertible I have seen some scary hair as a by product and maybe having no hair is the way to go! I have shaved my head before and I’m not afraid to do it again, but I decided to let the fate of my hair be decided online through my friends. They can choose to have my hair off or kept on by joining one or the other. The side group with the most members decides what I do with my hair.
And as a prelim I had a strip of hair waxed off my calf. One to see how bald skin looks like and two, to prove how little it hurts and that girls shouldn’t whinge at the pain! :P Mind you it was a bit ‘red’ the next day, but there was no pain that I experienced that warrants sharing with anyone. It was just like taking a plaster off.
You may be wondering WHY I would wax a strip of hair off my leg in the first place and where I got the wax strip from? Well, my cousin was getting married and the night before the wedding she was getting ready with her sister and bridesmaids. I popped over to check on the final arrangements where I saw they had some wax strips. Being curious and inquisitive I took the plunge and tried the wax for myself. Now I know how it feels, I may consider getting all my hair off for charity? What do you think?? How much would YOU pay to see me hairless?! And I mean EVERYWHERE!!! :O
Cousins Wedding
Yesterday was my cousin’s wedding, the first of the family on my mum’s side. It has been talked and talked about and all the efforts by everyone finally came together and the day was brilliant if a little overcast by the pouring rain.
The venue was a school with a wonder view. The building was a stately home type building and everything inside was very ornate and pretty. There were many tears shed by everyone including my grandfather who was very negative about the wedding until it happened.
I was asked to drive the bride to the venue and I had already done one dry run the day before to find the route. I arrived 15mins early to pick up my cousin, the bride, but was left waiting 30mins whilst she was getting ready and crying tears of happiness. But eventually we got in the car and made our way. The dry run I did proved most useful until I passed the final turning which meant I went 5 miles in the wrong direction! After much panic and sweating we managed to find the turning and arrived 20mins later than expected which was great as it meant the groom worked up a little sweat himself!
It was very touching at times and although it was very much a standard affair, it seems a little more significant when it is someone so close in the family. For me, it was my younger cousin who I have seen grow up from a tiny little baby to someone’s wife. It may be because she is my cousin, or it may be because of my age, but I felt real happiness for the couple. The groom is a great guy who I get along very well with and we, as a family, already accepted him before they were talking of marriage.
Though there were aspects which could have been improved upon, such as the food and the weather and maybe with the people invited, but all in all it was a great day with lots of laughter and lots of fun.
DANCING was something which really made the evening great. A wedding is one place where children and adults are all dancing together and to see my little cousins dance was a wonderful and funny sight. But then they saw me dancing the night away too which was probably more embarrassing! LOL Especially when I started to lose my clothes as the night wore on and I worked up more of a sweat! Luckily the night didn’t go on for too long!
Mid life crisis
Now for the truth behind everything I have done. I fear I am having a midlife crisis! Look at the evidence… I have bought a sports car, I have joined a gym, I am looking to change my appearance by shaving my head, I feel a little jealous (but definitely happier) seeing my cousin getting married whilst I am still single.
I really do not like the fact I am getting older and I am not settling down with my own life and to have a family of my own. Am I trying to justify everything I am doing? Or does everything actual make sense and it’s not really a crisis at all?
All I know is that I have been unhappy lately. I have made some decisions which makes me happier that are also logical choices, in my mind, such as changing my car and joining the gym. A thing like shaving my head is basically me looking back on my youth. I have shaved my head in the past and it’s just something I would like to do again to capture on camera so at least I have some record of it happening which I neglected the first time round.
The truth is, I will be 30 in 2 months time. It will spring up on me before I even know it! What will I do to celebrate? Who do I want to be there? Last year was a combination of my birthday and also to mark the end of my MBA. This year marks the end of my 20s and the beginning of my 30s. Many people tell me how young I am, but I know I should have achieved more than what I have now. It bugs me to live in fear of failure when I could have made something for myself.
I have set in my mind a 3 year plan. It is a selfish plan which doesn’t include anyone at the moment. But even if someone was to become part of my life, I need to focus and make sure I follow through with my plan. Success or failure is not of any great importance now. The important thing to me is that I follow through on what I have set out to do and that I do not get put off by negative people around me. I need to show more resilience and strength to ignore words of failure and just go for it…
In some respects I am very unhappy, but in others I feel much rejuvenated. It’s such a contradictory feeling, but that is how I feel.
There has been a lot of sighing lately which I hope to turn into laughter and joy….
Buying a car
Some people will already know I was in the process of buying a car to replace my ageing Civic. The Civic has been a really good car to me and it was honestly my first dream car in my late teens and early 20s. It had the performance I craved for, it was reasonably cheap to run and maintain and it was practical to the point I had moved to 3 different homes in it. The best car I have had and probably the best I will ever have in terms of all round capabilities along with running costs. My baby has endured 5 hard years and 102,000 miles with me and I am definitely sad to see it go. Sometimes I still feel as though I am on an extended test drive in my new car and any day now I will get back into my Civic….
But no… my new car is also a Honda, but this time it is the S2000. It’s never been a car that I have taken much noticed off as I was always after something practical, which almost inevitably meant a hatchback. However, times have changed and with my parents buying an additional car, the burden for me to own something practical lessened. Coupled with the fact the Civic had done over 102,000 miles in 5 years, I felt that the Civic was nearing a major ‘surgery’ which is why I felt I had to let it go.
The S2000 is different in every way other than the badge that sits on the bonnet and boot lid. The car seats two people only, has a small boot and it is a convertible. It has a somewhat subtle but noticeable appeal to it being a convertible. But it is not as loud or as brash as the Civic even though it is much more a sports car with its front engine rear wheel drive set up. The performance is fractionally better, but fuel consumption is poorer.
There’s a lot of good things to say about the S2000 but even more for the Civic, but they are different cars with different purposes and appeals to different demographics. A car like the S2000 that I would not have considered a few months back is now the only means of transport I have. But I am very happy with it.
However, I did not buy the car from new, I bought it 2nd hand from a respectable dealer. But I made simple rookie mistakes in missing certain check points and I got a rough deal. Not that I blame the dealer, because they sold me a very good car, but I blame myself for not making them provide me with the best service before committing my money. I am still very pleased with the car I have bought, but I do have to spend a little more money just to make it ‘perfect’ in my eyes. Nothing major, but just a minor gripe. It is a small price to pay for a car that I will own for at least 3 years.
Joined the gym
In amongst the decision of buying the S2000, I had a thorough look at myself and I realised that physically I needed to get healthier. Although I have quit smoking for 5 months now, I am not ‘reclaiming’ my health as I should be. I’m not overly fat, but I could do with losing some inches around the waist!
Joining the gym had crossed my mind earlier on in the year, but I was doing kick boxing at the time. It was good to do something physical but I did not see why I was doing kick boxing after a while. The fitness only reached a certain level and I was only going once a week. Whilst I was there, all I was doing was trying to ‘score’ points off my opponent but striking and kicking them. Violence as a sport without the pain seems a bit pointless to me and I have decided to train to prepare my body for a season of playing rugby…
That may not happen, but I have thought out the options and the best thing to do is to join the gym and build up some strength and fitness. Regardless of what I do at the end, at least I will have a healthier and fitter body.
Another reason for joining the gym now is to make use of my NUS card which expires in September (the MBA course was just over one calendar year, therefore I was registered as a student for 2 years). This meant I ended up paying £26 per month as opposed to £40 per month and I have the same benefits! BONUS! J
Considering shaving my head
Alongside the decision to buy the S2000, I also toyed with the idea of shaving my head. Being in a convertible I have seen some scary hair as a by product and maybe having no hair is the way to go! I have shaved my head before and I’m not afraid to do it again, but I decided to let the fate of my hair be decided online through my friends. They can choose to have my hair off or kept on by joining one or the other. The side group with the most members decides what I do with my hair.
And as a prelim I had a strip of hair waxed off my calf. One to see how bald skin looks like and two, to prove how little it hurts and that girls shouldn’t whinge at the pain! :P Mind you it was a bit ‘red’ the next day, but there was no pain that I experienced that warrants sharing with anyone. It was just like taking a plaster off.
You may be wondering WHY I would wax a strip of hair off my leg in the first place and where I got the wax strip from? Well, my cousin was getting married and the night before the wedding she was getting ready with her sister and bridesmaids. I popped over to check on the final arrangements where I saw they had some wax strips. Being curious and inquisitive I took the plunge and tried the wax for myself. Now I know how it feels, I may consider getting all my hair off for charity? What do you think?? How much would YOU pay to see me hairless?! And I mean EVERYWHERE!!! :O
Cousins Wedding
Yesterday was my cousin’s wedding, the first of the family on my mum’s side. It has been talked and talked about and all the efforts by everyone finally came together and the day was brilliant if a little overcast by the pouring rain.
The venue was a school with a wonder view. The building was a stately home type building and everything inside was very ornate and pretty. There were many tears shed by everyone including my grandfather who was very negative about the wedding until it happened.
I was asked to drive the bride to the venue and I had already done one dry run the day before to find the route. I arrived 15mins early to pick up my cousin, the bride, but was left waiting 30mins whilst she was getting ready and crying tears of happiness. But eventually we got in the car and made our way. The dry run I did proved most useful until I passed the final turning which meant I went 5 miles in the wrong direction! After much panic and sweating we managed to find the turning and arrived 20mins later than expected which was great as it meant the groom worked up a little sweat himself!
It was very touching at times and although it was very much a standard affair, it seems a little more significant when it is someone so close in the family. For me, it was my younger cousin who I have seen grow up from a tiny little baby to someone’s wife. It may be because she is my cousin, or it may be because of my age, but I felt real happiness for the couple. The groom is a great guy who I get along very well with and we, as a family, already accepted him before they were talking of marriage.
Though there were aspects which could have been improved upon, such as the food and the weather and maybe with the people invited, but all in all it was a great day with lots of laughter and lots of fun.
DANCING was something which really made the evening great. A wedding is one place where children and adults are all dancing together and to see my little cousins dance was a wonderful and funny sight. But then they saw me dancing the night away too which was probably more embarrassing! LOL Especially when I started to lose my clothes as the night wore on and I worked up more of a sweat! Luckily the night didn’t go on for too long!
Mid life crisis
Now for the truth behind everything I have done. I fear I am having a midlife crisis! Look at the evidence… I have bought a sports car, I have joined a gym, I am looking to change my appearance by shaving my head, I feel a little jealous (but definitely happier) seeing my cousin getting married whilst I am still single.
I really do not like the fact I am getting older and I am not settling down with my own life and to have a family of my own. Am I trying to justify everything I am doing? Or does everything actual make sense and it’s not really a crisis at all?
All I know is that I have been unhappy lately. I have made some decisions which makes me happier that are also logical choices, in my mind, such as changing my car and joining the gym. A thing like shaving my head is basically me looking back on my youth. I have shaved my head in the past and it’s just something I would like to do again to capture on camera so at least I have some record of it happening which I neglected the first time round.
The truth is, I will be 30 in 2 months time. It will spring up on me before I even know it! What will I do to celebrate? Who do I want to be there? Last year was a combination of my birthday and also to mark the end of my MBA. This year marks the end of my 20s and the beginning of my 30s. Many people tell me how young I am, but I know I should have achieved more than what I have now. It bugs me to live in fear of failure when I could have made something for myself.
I have set in my mind a 3 year plan. It is a selfish plan which doesn’t include anyone at the moment. But even if someone was to become part of my life, I need to focus and make sure I follow through with my plan. Success or failure is not of any great importance now. The important thing to me is that I follow through on what I have set out to do and that I do not get put off by negative people around me. I need to show more resilience and strength to ignore words of failure and just go for it…
In some respects I am very unhappy, but in others I feel much rejuvenated. It’s such a contradictory feeling, but that is how I feel.
There has been a lot of sighing lately which I hope to turn into laughter and joy….
1 comment:
Take your time and get comfortable in your skin. This is the time of change and sometimes its for the best. You shouldnt be in a rush to achieve everything now.
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